| Remember the LORD your God — Deuteronomy 8:18  The Critical Importance of Facing Your Trauma by Dan Allender, from Redeeming Heartache  
Joan, a Bainbridge Island firefighter, was in my house with a group of our neighbors, telling us how to prepare for the earthquake that will inevitably hit our island. Apparently our neighborhood sits squarely on the Cascadia Subduction Zone.
Earlier, when Becky informed me that we were hosting the gathering, I'd asked her if I needed to attend. When her eyes flashed with incredulity, I quickly retracted my question.
I had no doubt that Joan, no more than five feet four inches and 120 pounds, could swing my dead weight over her shoulder and carry me down a flight of stairs if I needed saving. But now she was telling us, "You are on your own. When the big one hits, don't expect the fire department, EMS, police, or any other cavalry to save you." Joan reminded us that we live on an island.
I knew this nearly 20 years ago when we moved here. I ignored it. She explained that the bridge to the peninsula would likely go down and the ferry to Seattle would be terminated. Access to save our burning home or to attend to our crushed arm would be delayed until those not on duty could get to the island. Those first responders would naturally tend to their families first and then their neighbors. We would receive care only after those in greatest need were served. Therefore, we must have at least two weeks' worth of food and water, cooking and camping gear, medication, clothing, and first aid supplies to deal with our needs.
Joan handed out all the written data we would need to survive, but what I recall most vividly are the faces and mood of my neighbors. We moved from mild interest to increasing sobriety to quiet terror. I lost count of how many times she said, "You are on your own." I felt sick to my stomach. Images of disaster invaded like a nightmare as I complimented Joan and thanked her for a highly motivating presentation.
After a mere 12 hours and a disturbed night's sleep, I moved on to more pressing issues — conflicts at work, an upcoming seminar, and a lawn that needed cutting. It didn't take half a day to forget Joan's prophecy of doom.
Our inability to prepare for a disaster lies in our immense capacity for denial.
There is no command in Scripture urged more frequently than the two-sided
Do not forget the LORD your God — Deuteronomy 8:11 and Remember the LORD your God — Deuteronomy 8:18
Why are we reminded not to forget? Is it because we so often misplace keys and forget birthdays? Or is it a much darker reality than the mental strain of multitasking or the memory deficits of aging? I posit that we refuse to remember because remembering disrupts our illusion of control. We prefer our delusion that we are far from death. If I remember my great need, then I can't presume that what my calendar says will come to pass. Yesterday I was flying home from a conference in Nashville, and today I am sheltering in place. Much of what I count on to give solace and meaning to my daily, hourly, minute-to-minute life rests on predictability, safety, and control.
And when that is gone….
At play here is a psychological process called "motivated inference," but we can easily think of it as self-righteousness. We interpret reality by what seems most consistent with what we want to see, what personally benefits us. Our presuppositions lead us to be selective and to discard what does not confirm our beliefs as untrue. We refuse to be troubled for long.
In a disaster, we are often reminded to consider God. The Bible implies that when we do so, in remembering we will be comforted. And while this is true, usually, it first brings upheaval. If we realize we are dependent on God, then we cannot trust any other kingdom, idol, or savior. If instead, we give into self-righteousness, or motivated inference, we can ignore the coming tumult and erase the past harm by willful blindness. We don't want to remember God because to do so intensifies our helplessness in the face of loss, prompts a fight with the Almighty, and calls us to name past heartache we'd prefer to ignore.
Consider Psalm 77 as a paradigm for engaging all kinds of anguish:
I cried out to God for help…. When I was in distress, I sought the LORD…. My heart meditated, and my spirit asked: 'Will the LORD reject forever? Will He never show His favor again?' — Psalm 77:1-2, Psalm 77:6-7).
Whatever prompted the psalmist to cry out to God, his suffering could not be soothed merely by turning to spiritual platitudes.
He could not find rest, and he would not be comforted by any person or truth. This passage is the Word of God. It is Scripture and it is true. But the truth isn't always enough. It's not biblical to say, "The Bible says it, I believe it, it is finished." The Bible itself says that truth alone is often not enough to trust or find comfort in until one wrestles with God to an uneasy truce. Only in the context of raw and honest anguish could the psalmist come back around to remembering God.
Then I thought, "To this I will appeal: Your ways, God, are holy. The waters saw you, God, Your path led through the sea, You led your people like a flock
If you're familiar with the Bible, you'll recognize the allusions in Psalm 77. This passage is poetry from the great rescue event in the Hebrew Scriptures — the exodus of the Israelites from slavery in Egypt toward the promised land. It's impossible to overlook the intensity of sound, light, and fury resonating throughout this passage and its contrast to the unseen but unmistakable footprints of God. The writhing occurs in the first several verses of this psalm. The writer's tears pour out like rain.
He convulses in groaning, and his guts are churning. But then he affirms that unlike the gods of the world, his God is good.
When the psalm ends, is the writer's suffering over? Does he now have the perspective to face serenely what is ruining his life? We don't know. He doesn't end this psalm with repentance or exaltation. He ends with naming God as a shepherd, recalling Psalm 23:1,
The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
Comfort is implied, but the passage asks us to do what David did that seems so difficult: to embody our heartache.
Entering Trauma
Current suffering can't be engaged until we let our bodies accept heartache. It is perhaps one of the most important things to face about our refusal to prepare for disaster: we don't want to feel what our bodies suffer in trauma. When we feel suffering in our bodies, we can't help but connect the present to the past.
We remember the day before the tragedy ensued. We were happy once, even if we aren't in this moment.
To enter trauma is to allow the intensification of loss to seize our hearts and bodies. The result of a single traumatic moment is heightened sensitivity for at least four to six hours. Cortisol pulses and the biochemicals related to intimacy, serotonin and oxytocin, decrease. The moment we feel unsafe in any context, we experience the typical options of fight, flight, or freeze. This chain is hardwired into our brain and operates in babies and small children well before language develops or threats can be assessed and managed.
God has divinely equipped us to meet a threat with the best our bodies can muster.
Our natural physical responses to inner traumas help us regulate and return to stasis. Imagine turning a corner and encountering a threat to your life. In an instant, a series of neurological processes will occur to aid your survival. The cognitive center in the left frontal lobe shuts down because you don't need to philosophize about death, you need to take action to escape. Anything that might get in the way of survival is ignored in that moment. The result is that you probably lose your appetite, sexual desire, and the ability to process your emotions. You get so tunnel-visioned that everything and everyone not related to survival gets put to the side, and you lose the trees for the forest. During that time, you are more prone to overreact, make poor decisions, and fail to ask for help.
Instead of reflecting on all your options, you instinctively make a decision that saves you from harm and helps you return to normal again, or at least as normal as possible.
When we experience trauma and find no physical relief or bodily means to resolve the threat (fighting back or running away, primarily), we remain in a hyperactive mode. When a situation feels too dangerous, we're intent on escaping, even if where we end up is more uncertain than where we began. If significant debris builds up to cause physical illness and psychological symptoms such as depression and anxiety, then the weight of that affects our relationships. When our reactive and defensive systems take over our ability to relate, the drama of trauma can effectively silence us, blind us to others, and drown out God's voice.
Here's what's vital to understand:
Adapted from Redeeming Heartache by Dr. Dan B. Allender and Cathy Loerzel, M.A.
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